March Reflections – My Birthday, Facing Rejection and Losing Self-Confidence

Like every other blogger out there, I am starting this reflections post with the obligatory ‘I can’t believe it’s already April!’. But seriously, how did that happen? March, although seeming to fly by, was quite the struggle for me to get through at times. It wasn’t all bad though…

The first half of the month ran pretty smoothly, dare I say uneventfully. I was on top of my Open University work, went to a Sigrid concert, and even managed to start feeling more comfortable in my working environment. Then it was my birthday: half of which was was an extremely stressful morning at work, the other half of which was amazing. Either way, I made it to twenty, so I guess that’s an achievement!

Soon after that, I went on a hectic tour around England to visit potential universities and decided on my favourite – only for that university to be the one institution, out of all five, to reject me. This whole situation really set me back in March and I have felt extremely lost trying to move forward and work out my next move.

This led to a huge loss of self-confidence and a lack of motivation for many things I normally feel capable of doing. As a result of this, I took a bit of a social media break for a week to focus on myself; I think I really needed this time alone for my thoughts to start processing.

One way in which this manifested was through starting to write poetry – a form of writing that feels personal and intimate, and very much an activity of self reflection. I’ve had a few past experiences dabbling in poetry before but in March I felt like I found a style that I like – I don’t quite know yet if it’s my style, but it’s definitely style. I’ve shared two poems on my blog so far, Taking Control Of My Life Decisions and What No One Wants To Hear, and have had quite a few positive responses, so thank you so much for that!

Going into April, I have had enough of my ruminating negative thoughts; I am trying to leave the majority of these in March and really try hard to take some positive steps forward. This month, I am challenging myself to get up early every single day, follow basic to-do lists, get out and exercise more, and prioritise important things. Letting life events push me so far off kilter isn’t a sustainable way to exist and I don’t want to have to repair everything from scratch every time something shakes me.

I want to be able to think about and deal with difficult things without physically feeling the impact throughout my whole mind and body. This is the valuable lesson March has taught me.


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11 thoughts on “March Reflections – My Birthday, Facing Rejection and Losing Self-Confidence

  1. Hannah says:

    I remember applying to Universities back in 2014/2015 (I’m so old!) and my favourite University rejected me too but I have come to love the University I am currently at and I realise now that I probably wouldn’t have been happy at the other University, so far from home. xx

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    • Alys says:

      I applied in 2015/2016 the first time and got into the same exact uni I got rejected from this time so it just felt like a bigger shock I guess. But yeah, a lot of people seem to say what you’re saying! I’m glad you ended up being happy with where you went xx

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  2. Bexa says:

    I’ve never applied to an actual uni but I can imagine getting rejected is a big knock back. I always think everything happens for a reason, even if you can’t see the reason at the time. It’s great you are seeing March as a valuable lesson and feeling positive for April. I hope you have a great month Alys 😘 xx

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  3. Laura says:

    A very happy 20th birthday for last week! I had a very similar situation years ago when I was applying for unis – I was set solely on my favourite and I remember reading the rejection email and feeling sick with disappointment. Instead, I went to another uni which offered a fantastic course, I learnt more than I could have imagined, and I made friends for life. In all honesty, where you go really doesn’t matter, it’s the experiences and learnings you take from it. Chin up – you’ll do amazingly wherever you choose!

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  4. aliceisanonymous says:

    Love this post. I love a to do list to help myself face the day, especially when it’s being a difficult time. It’s much easier to face the difficult things when you break them down into smaller, easy to approach tasks. ✨

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