Ordering Food – Conversations With Anxiety #03

Snapshots of the conversations that are had between anxiety and I: the things we fight over, the discussions and debates we take part in and the struggle to reason with irrationality. Some of these are based on past events or reoccurring battles, some on more recent occasions, and some are simply extrapolations of experiences I’ve had.

Anxiety: Why are we doing this?

Me: Huh?

Anxiety: We can’t make decisions, we shouldn’t be here.

Me: What?!

Anxiety: This requires a decision! A big one, a fast one! Hurry up, we have to –

Me: Seriously?

Anxiety: What do you want? No, no, I’ll choose, I’m fussier than you.

Me: Do I get a say?

Anxiety: Agh no I can’t do it, you choose. Quickly!

Me: Hmm, maybe we can have –

Anxiety: We don’t have TIME for this, why is it taking you so long?!

Me: Just give me a second.

Anxiety: Everyone else knows what they want, they all know, we don’t. Oh my god, they’re looking at us, they want to order. Someone’s about to come over, have you got something to say because I don’t, can you please –

Me: Okay, okay. That one.

Anxiety: No we can’t have that, what if it’s too spicy?!

Me: Fine, what about that one?

Anxiety: Maybe. Are you sure? I’m not sure.

Waiter: “Can I take your drinks order?”

Me:

Anxiety: WE DIDN’T LOOK AT THE DRINKS MENU. How did you forget that? Was I meant to remember? Drinks always come first! How are we that stupid. We look insane right now, our hands are shaking, we’re taking too long to respond, oh god, oh no, he’s definitely noticed, SAY SOMETHING.

Me: “Um…”

Anxiety: Not that! ‘Um’? What’s that even supposed to mean?

Waiter: “Need more time?”

Anxiety: Is he smirking at us? Probably at the ridiculous blush colouring our cheeks. Or the fact we haven’t ordered a drink yet like normal people do. We can’t do this, let’s never do this again. This was –

Me: “Please.”


Read the rest of the series:

Going Shopping #01

Job Hunting #02


My Social Media Links:

Twitter (@alysjournals)

Instagram (@alystravels)

Pinterest (@alysdc)

Bloglovin’

32 thoughts on “Ordering Food – Conversations With Anxiety #03

  1. anxieteaandcake says:

    I really love how much these posts make me giggle. I had this exact conversation in my head in every cafe I visited in Bruges this weekend. It’s something nice to know that you’re not the only one trying to silence that anxious gremlin! xx

    Liked by 1 person

  2. thecozydenblog says:

    Ordering food can be so hard. Especially places like Subway where you have to put together your food. I’d love to do that but I always end up playing it safe. I’ve had so many similar conversations in my head, just like you wrote about it! You did amazingly at depicting that! S. xx

    Liked by 1 person

  3. Jani V says:

    This made me laugh because when anxiety is rampant you can feel like you are drowning in your own thoughts but when you dissect it out like this and read it back to yourself you realize how irrational it really is. I remember when I learned how to identify these distorted thoughts and analyze them and that helps you so much! Thanks for sharing such a relatable moment!

    Jani from http://www.mylifeinmedicineblog.com

    Liked by 1 person

    • Alys says:

      That can be really hard if the people around you aren’t supportive and understanding. I hope you know that there are a lot of us who have these feelings and will happily support you! xx

      Liked by 1 person

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s